Dear spirit, Dear faith

 When I am lost I come to you

I should find you, talk to you when the world’s ok

but then  I have no words

I should ask you to stand by me even when life is on my side

But then  I can’t hear

or I forget to listen

When lost I long to see you

to be shown the way

But I don’t know when I’m going the wrong way

When I need to the most I forget to ask for your direction

When I have arms to hold me at night

I wish for your healing embrace

But with one earthy kiss I forget who I belong to

I forget where I came from

Who I am

The trees, the breeze, the birds’ song brings me closer to you

I can hear your breath in the wind

But a deep voice  can drown out the soft sweet sound

I would ask for forgiveness for losing you

and perhaps using you

But you are not the type to deliver  the blame

Never  mad,

always patient,

waiting there to find me when I am lost

walking the the misguided path along with me


Wild and wise things my spirit guide told me…

Another entry for my series: Crazy but wise things my SG has said to me. Please see spirit guide tag for more information and entries on my spirit guide, Jerry… 


” I love you but I don’t need you. I know this is difficult for you to understand because you believe that love and need are connected. You think that it is a compliment to be needed in love. But it is much better that I love  you because I want to. I am not incomplete and looking to be filled up by love. If this was the case, once I was whole there would be no need to have you around. A love based by need is about using that person to fill a void. It is a greater compliment that even though I do not need anyone, even though I am ok by myself and have everything that I need, I still prefer to be with you then without you. A love based on need can not truly last but this sort… A love without conditions or needs or even reason has lasted lifetimes. Simply because we wanted it too…”

Things my Spirit Guide has told me

Note: Please read the Jerry The SG post first to learn more about what a spirit guide is and about my master SG Jerry. You can also read spirit guide on the train and soulmate part two for more insight into my crazy relationship with my guide.

Here begins the series of crazy but wise things my spirit guide has told me… hope you enjoy them:

A crazy but wise thing my spirit guide told me once was…

“I’m your Spirit Guide. Not your matchmaker.”

To which, I probably said ” If you were a good guide then you would have my back and I wouldn’t end up with such losers. Now, do your job and GUIDE a cute man my way.”

Then he probably responded with some witty and too wise to argue with joke.

To which I most likely countered with, ” You suck… Can you fire a spirit guide?”

( As I wrote the above sentence I heard my dear Jerry say,” Good Luck replacing me! Who would want to take on that Job.”)

Whatever Jerry, Whatever… that’s why I got a physical body and you don’t. So there ( sticks out her tongue)

And that concludes Crazy but wise things my spirit guide has told me.

Paganism in Five seconds…

I wasn’t really going to do this but hey what the heck… fair is fair

1. Harmin’ peeps aint cool, dude.

2. We like trees so much we hug them

3. Unicorns, fairies, gods, godesses, spirits are awesome.

4. I can make things happen with my mind and wand.

5. You are everything, I’m everything. Like everything is the Goddess and Love, man.

6. Screw all these rules… lets pull out the drums and party.

And this lame post has been Paganism in five seconds…

sorry to all pagans who hate unicorns, fairies and Bambi…

A Spirit Guide on the train


Friday, I wrapped my Rose quartz necklace around my wrist. I brought the strand of crystals recently from a little crystal stop downtown. I brought them to honor my Spirit Guide. I had decided a while ago that the Rose quartz would be his stone. Because he is a guide of the heart. A guide of love.I allowed the long strand to fall into my palm and I held it tight as I wrote in my journal. I wrote something about Jerry. I wrote about how it was Friday: Jerry’s Day. I had designated Friday as the day I would honor my guide. As it is the day of Venus. The day of Divine love.

I was on the train, forcing myself to take the hour long ride downtown to go to karate.I close my journal, having finished the last of my thoughts. At that point, my ipod skipped over what it was playing. A song came on that had meaning to me. There are a few songs that remind me of mySpirit Guide. Lullaby by the Dixie Chicks is one of them. And by chance or by the hands of my guide it was playing. I laid my head against the train’s window and allowed myself to take in the song fully.

“They didn’t have you where I come from

Never knew the best was yet to come

Life began when I saw your face

And I hear your laugh like a serenade”

Suddenly, I saw my guide standing in front of me. In a place filled with light. In the heavens.He touched my face, the way he always does. His touch could heal a million wounds and calm the most restlessof nerves.

“As you wander through this troubled world

In search of all things beautiful

You can close your eyes when you’re miles away

And hear my voice like a serenade”

He simply looked at me while a while as the song played on in the background. Then he pulled me into his arms and we danced. He knows how much I love to dance. I never feel more free then when I dance. I never feel more loved then when I am with my guide. How lucky am I to experience such unconditional love? I’m so blessed to know that I will never be alone.

“How long do you want to be loved

Is forever enough, is forever enough”

~ lyrics from Lullaby by the Dixie Chicks~

…And Now introducing Jerry, The SG


Spirit guide“ is a term used by the Western tradition of Spiritualist Churches, mediums, and psychics to describe an entity that remains a disincarnate spirit in order to act as a spiritual counselor or protector to a living incarnated human being”.
On this blog, I will be sharing experiences I have had with my Master Guide. But first here is a little background on him and our relationship.

I have been communicating with my Spirit Guide for as long as I can remember. Of Course, when I was a little girl I didn’t think of him as a Guide. He was just an imaginary friend that I had made up in my head so I would have someone to play with when I was lonely. I was raised as an only child and as a kid I was the shy and quiet type. Therefore, I spent a lot of time playing make-believe with my Fictional Friend.

It wasn’t until I was 21 that I discovered my imaginary friend was actually my Spirit Guide. I had only been a Wiccan for a year and I had a budding interest in psychic phenomenal. I enrolled in a spirit communication class and one of our first assignments was an exercise on meeting your Spirit Guide. We were instructed to enter a deep meditation then picture a safe place in nature. Once there, we were to call on our Spirit Guides. I followed the instructions: I relaxed into meditation and I created my inner sanctuary. But before I could call for my Guides, I saw my old friend standing there in front of me. As if he had been waiting for me for a long time. Surprisingly, I wasn’t shocked. It made perfect sense to me that he was my Master guide. I suppose subconsciously I always knew who he was.

My guide is not as “ cool” as all the ones mediums seemed to have. He is not a Native American, Egyptian or Indian. He doesn’t have a crazy spiritual or tribal name. His name is simply Jerry and he is a white male( at least that’s how he appears to me). In my spirit guide meditation, he appeared to me as very tall and wearing a long hooded white robe. His hair as red as fire , his eyes are bright green( so bright they are hard to look directly into) and his lips are soft pink. I have come to believe these colors are symbols for divine love. Red and pink are the colors of the heart and green is the color of the heart charka. These are fitting symbols since Jerry is a Guide of Love and healing.

Often my communication with Jerry is not in any formal manner. I speak to him randomly. I talk to him like I would talk to a Best friend because that is what he is to me.

He is by no means a serious guy. I can with joke him and he loves to make fun of me. Once, I asked him on my friend’s psychic board about finding a boyfriend. His response to my question was “ LOL”. I informed him that he was clearly bored on the Other Side and had nothing better to do but to bother me… and that’s the sort of relationship we have. LOL