On Defining my Magick

What is my magick? I used to do a lot of spells when I was younger. Spells for love and happiness and money. But the older I  would get, the less spells I would do. Magick become less about what I could attain. Magick became about my connection with nature. I wanted mystical relationships. Marriage to the sun and moon. An affair with the waters. A deep secret friendship with the air. The earth as a my protector. Old, grumpy and wise earth. I wanted to understand how everything worked. And how I was apart of it. I did not want to create magic, I wanted to discover that I was indeed magic.

Surprise. As I got older still, magic took on a new meaning. I wanted to heal. Not with spells. They seemed too easy and fleeting. I wanted to heal people.  Heal the inner pains with hard work. By helping them see into their own hearts and minds. Helping them to see their own wisdom. Help them see they are also magic.

I wanted to heal the human relationships. I wanted to heal our relationships with nature. With creation.  I wanted to teach that we all were married to each other. Interdependent. We were all the sun, moon, earth, water.  And then I grew older and came down to earth. I wanted to  experienced the true magic of family and friends. I wanted to heal my own wounds and disconnection from loved  ones. I wanted to feel not the sun or reach the stars. I wanted to dig through the earth, pull up the dirt and find the bones, the bodies, the skeletons of my ancestors. I wanted to discover my roots.  How could I know magic if I don’t know where I come from, and  who I am.? Magic is now honoring the past, the spirits and ancestors. Seeing and receiving their healing messages. Passing on what I learn.  So that many other people can take this journey into magic too.

Redefining: Paganism

As I have had this blog for awhile, I realize that there are few topics  where I have change my views or grown in understanding. Therefore, from to time to time, I will be updating and correcting  or adding to some of my older posts.

This is a update  of my original post defining  Pagan/Paganism.

First off, we should start by acknowledging that there is no agree upon definition of Pagan or Paganism.  Though many  might think this lack of clarity is unique to Pagans, disagreement on religious terms are quite common within traditions and the academic world. For instance, the definition of a Christian or ritual is still unclear in religious studies.

Being that there is tons of debates and infighting around the words Pagan and Paganism, some people  refuse to define them at all. Settling instead by describing Paganism simply as a ” Umbrella or blanket term for various religions.” While, this description can be useful in certain incidences, it is not much help as a formal definition for students, professors, writers and lecturers whose audiences may need more insight. My personal suggestion for defining Paganism especially in formal writing  is to do your own research, form your own opinion,  offer a definition that fits your topic, audience and  your understanding but  be ready to defend your findings. Also, be flexible as your definition may be different given the topic, your experience or setting. For instance, a general and most inclusive definition may work for a big tent Paganism event while a nature based one may be more suitable for a ecology paper or a feminist one for a Women’s group.

Below are some definitions of Paganism ( all of which are acceptable in some circles and rejected in others)

Paganism is or a Pagan is a follower of…

* A nature, earth, universe based religion

* A polytheistic religion

* A Non monotheistic religion

* A Non- Christian religion

* A Non- Abrahamic religion

* A folk or ethnic religion

* A historical ethnic religion

* A magic based religion

* Cyber Pagan tradition

* An umbrella term for religions who deem themselves Pagans

Original meanings of Pagan/paganism

* Citizen

* Poor, Rural folk

* Country dweller

* ” Of the land”

Use as Slur

( none of these things are inherently bad but the term was meant as a bad thing for these groups or as a means of  lumping groups together incorrectly)

* as a label for Non-Christian

* as a label for  those not saved or doomed

* as a term meaning Satan Worshiper

* as a label for Black/Brown/Indigenous religions

* as a label for Jewish people.

One this blog, Paganism will usually refer to nature based, folk and magical traditions. I do talk about Hinduism and Buddhism however I prefer the term Asian, Eastern or Karmic religions for those traditions ( though I feel those who follow these traditions can call themselves whatever they please). I do not use Paganism as a blank term for all non- Abrahamic religions as some still view Pagan as a slur. Also, many religions have their own and more appropriate designations.

I also think Pagan is a reclaimed word and not everyone should have access to it. It is usually a word for religions and people who are outsiders or marginalized and is used to reclaim their roots or power.