What is my magick? I used to do a lot of spells when I was younger. Spells for love and happiness and money. But the older I would get, the less spells I would do. Magick become less about what I could attain. Magick became about my connection with nature. I wanted mystical relationships. Marriage to the sun and moon. An affair with the waters. A deep secret friendship with the air. The earth as a my protector. Old, grumpy and wise earth. I wanted to understand how everything worked. And how I was apart of it. I did not want to create magic, I wanted to discover that I was indeed magic.
Surprise. As I got older still, magic took on a new meaning. I wanted to heal. Not with spells. They seemed too easy and fleeting. I wanted to heal people. Heal the inner pains with hard work. By helping them see into their own hearts and minds. Helping them to see their own wisdom. Help them see they are also magic.
I wanted to heal the human relationships. I wanted to heal our relationships with nature. With creation. I wanted to teach that we all were married to each other. Interdependent. We were all the sun, moon, earth, water. And then I grew older and came down to earth. I wanted to experienced the true magic of family and friends. I wanted to heal my own wounds and disconnection from loved ones. I wanted to feel not the sun or reach the stars. I wanted to dig through the earth, pull up the dirt and find the bones, the bodies, the skeletons of my ancestors. I wanted to discover my roots. How could I know magic if I don’t know where I come from, and who I am.? Magic is now honoring the past, the spirits and ancestors. Seeing and receiving their healing messages. Passing on what I learn. So that many other people can take this journey into magic too.